“doorways”

i had an appointment this morning once again with my dream-maker (my surgeon)… i’ll never forget the first time i walked thru that door, and at the moment i never knew the dreams that awaited for me on the other side of that doorway or the beautiful people that would fill my life…

“doorways”

i walk thru a door
and there are countless doors
doors we walk thru everyday during our life…
doorways can be magical
a gateway to a new beginning
or a tunnel to depression, pain and sadness
a sadness that will have you curse that doorway…
our life is simply nothing but doorways
doorways we must traverse….

but my heart knows of a doorway
it’s a doorway to a dream
a dream i held in my heart
held for countless sleepless nights
held while endless prayers were prayed..
and i knew that doorway was always out there
for my heart told me so
told me so
but i just had to wait
wait till it was my turn
my turn to walk thru that door…

i will never forget that day
that day the door was there
there for me to walk thru
i wanted to run thru that door
i was excited but in a way scared
scared for i could not believe that
that doorway to my dreams
was right in front of me…

and today
how many times had i walked thru that door,
well only my heart knows,
my heart knows because every time i walked
walked thru that door
my heart skipped a beat because of the joy
a joy that filled my soul
and with this joy came a blessing
a blessing of my dream of a lifetime
of a life that is so beautiful
beautiful because of that door…

but today i feel a sadness
a sadness for i’m afraid
afraid that this may be the last time
my heart walks thru that door
a door that gave me my dream
a dream i prayed for a million times every night
prayed for every night for a lifetime…

i walk thru a door
and there are countless doors
doors we walk thru everyday during our life…
doorways can be magical
a gateway to a new beginning
a gateway to my dream….
tess julianna 8/7/19